It took nearly 4 months, but I finally donated all of my pumped breast milk. Mixed emotions would be the best way to describe how I felt… Read more “Donating Breast Milk”
Author: lonimarie2016
I am a teacher and a writer; I love my beautiful family with my husband of five years, too! My new motherhood came to an abrupt halt when our first baby son died at 2 months old. I write for my lost son, my living children and I write for me. You will always be alive, to me, Wyatt--
Not Ready ‘Till I’m Ready
We took down the crib. This was a topic we had discussed a few weeks ago, and at the time we decided we weren’t ready. Brian’s sister… Read more “Not Ready ‘Till I’m Ready”
Follow My Heart: A Self-Lecture
This is going to sound like a lecture, and it is. A lecture to myself to read over when the grief is larger than my healing. Here… Read more “Follow My Heart: A Self-Lecture”
Everywhere You Go, There You Are
I’ve been traveling steadily and not blogging at all. Some getaways with my husband and some with my girlfriends, too. It has been both refreshing and difficult.… Read more “Everywhere You Go, There You Are”
A Star
Since the death of my two-month old son, I rely on many tangible and intangible ways to see and feel him. I meditate almost daily, read books… Read more “A Star”
Practicing Harmony
When I think of harmony I picture a nicely postured orchestra or a string of sisters trying to sing in unison. The harmony in my heart is… Read more “Practicing Harmony”
Good At Gardening?
I’m not too good at gardening, this I’m finding out. Right after Wyatt died I had this darkening sense that I was toxic and that whatever… Read more “Good At Gardening?”
Sharing Space
I was motivated to do some arranging in the baby’s nursery. There is a closet full of his somewhat hanging clothes, shoes, hats, diapers and blankets. For… Read more “Sharing Space”
A Weight Loss Goal
Like many other mothers, I gained weight over the course of pregnancy. My weight gain was practical, around fifteen pounds while baby grew, contently. Then, I delivered… Read more “A Weight Loss Goal”
A Moment
And then, just like that, our lives changed. Everything just kind of ended. The dreams, the plans, the chaos, the love, the anticipation, the fear, the loneliness,… Read more “A Moment”
